Good Day

So laltely I have been eating whenever I was bores. Yet today I was good I had
soup at 380 caloires for a total of 2 servings
popcorn at 100 caloires
ww ravoili at 290 caloires and a diet SODA.

I am so proud of my self. Yea go me.

Update: weight

So since the 15 of october I have gained back 4 pounds. I have been eatign bad which is not a good thing. I have been able to maintain my weight which is good. Also I am getting back on my diet tomorrow. Today I chaged how I am eating. i am hoping that the change will show up tomorrow on the scale. I also plan on working out tomorrow and weight lifting agin. I also have changed my weight loss goal. I would like to get down to 125 pounds which is a realistic GoAL. Matt is suppposed to be home sometime next summer and my goal is to be down to 150 pounds. Wish me luck

Update: Matt Left

So Matt left on tuesday to go back to Iraq. It was very hard for me to let him go this time because I know it is going to be for a long period of time. The girls are doign ok it with him being ogne. It is me who is having a rough time dealing with it. I hate sleeping alone, I hate fixing dinner for just the 3 of us, I hate coming home to a empty house and know that he will not be here waiting for me. I hate the fact that he is gone before christmas. I think that is what makes it so much harder. He left before christmas and will not be here to spend the time with us. I am so over this war. I say drop a nuclear bomb in them and let them deal with it. I am sick of sending innocent gusy over there to lose thier life because of soemones else war.While I don't support the war Ido support are troops because are doing what they being old to do but damn it is pisses me off.

Vacation Update

So the week before last we went home to florida to get a break form here before matt deploys to Iraq for the second time this year. We had alot of fun. We had family pictures done on tuesday which was a 3 hour event because Maddison did not want to smile at all. We finally got a few good ones which was nice because it was our 1st family picture.
On friday we took the girls to disney and they loved it. Kylie was so happy she got to meet cinderella, belle and auroa. After it was all said and done she had alot offun and we spent alot of money(500). On saturday we left to came and stopped in moblie alabama nd the netx day we took the girls to see the battleship which they loved but it was cold.
Also when we were down ther my parnets were not there because they ha dgone on vacation but the saturday that we got there my sisters got a call that they had been in a bad accident. Thye were not hurt but thier car was totaled. They ended up coming back to florida early because they were not having fun.

Now we are back to the real world and getting ready for this damn deployment which has me so stressed out so hopefully with christmas coming it won't be so bad. hopefully.

Brandi I will put new pictures up soon

Stupid PLateau

So for the last few months I have been holding at 181. No matter what I do I cannot break this number. I have managed to do it once but I get right back up to 181. My body is happy at this weight but my head and heart are not. I want to hit the 140s so bad that I can feel it. So I am going to try a week of the nutrisytem program and see how good i do on that. It is expensive but I have found it somewhat cheaper on ebay. I have not been able to workout as much as I would like but hopefully that will changeonce Matt is gone. We shall see.