30 Today!!!

I think there is something about the fact that I am turning 30!

I know that I have been dreading it for the past month but now that it is here I am excited about the prospects about what my life has in store for me! 

Many goals will be realized this year and many good things are to come


Happy birthday to me!!

My Next Thirty Years by Tim McGraw

I think I'll take a moment, celebrate my age
The ending of an era and the turning of a page
Now it's time to focus in on where I go from here
Lord have mercy on my next thirty years

Hey my next thirty years I'm gonna have some fun
Try to forget about all the crazy things I've done
Maybe now I've conquered all my adolescent fears
And I'll do it better in my next thirty years

My next thirty years I'm gonna settle all the scores
Cry a little less, laugh a little more
Find a world of happiness without the hate and fear
Figure out just what I'm doing here
In my next thirty years

Oh my next thirty years, I'm gonna watch my weight
Eat a few more salads and not stay up so late
Drink a little lemonade and not so many beers
Maybe I'll remember my next thirty years

My next thirty years will be the best years of my life
Raise a little family and hang out with my wife
Spend precious moments with the ones that I hold dear
Make up for lost time here, in my next thirty years
In my next thirty years

Girls Time

This one involves my little ladies. As my little girls are coming up to their teen years I want them to know that they can always come to me and count on me.

This being said, I want to start spending more one on one time with them. Weather this be something like taking a walk around a lake or going to have tea. I plan to do something special with each of them every other month. I will start with Maddison first because she always gets picked last. Lol. Joys of being the youngest.  I plan to let each girl pick what we do and do exactly what they want. This will allow them to fell special.

This will have already started by the time this is posted but I will update when we do it!!

I am looking forward to this one the most!!

Wine tasting

Again a easy one but one I have always wanted to do and never did.

Would love to visit different winery's and learn about the wines. Some day I would love to go to napa on a huge wine tour.

Plan for this one is easy look for winery's in dallas and go visit.

Cooking Class

When I first decided to go back to school many years ago I debated being getting my bachelors degree and cooking to culinary school. I ended up not doing the culinary school but cooking is a passion of mine.

I don't get to do it to often because of my crazy schedule but I would love to take several this year to enhance my skills. I am not trying to be Julia Childs but if I have friends or family who want to come over then I can prepare a yummy meal.

The plan with this one will not start until the fall unfortunately. My schedule for the next several months is super crazy with school work and the girls that I would not have time to get it in. This gives me a little time to research what classes I want to take .

Marathon

Ok this one is a huge deal for me!! Being honest I am not sure I will be able to do it.  As you know I am in the process of losing weight. In the last few months I have been walking on the treadmill and I can fell that I am learning more and able to do more. However running for me is very hard since I have a heart condition which affects my lungs.

So here is my plan for this one. I am slowly going to start trying to walk more and as my weight goes down then I will be able to go faster.

If I can find a walk/run marathon. I plan to do the walk part of it!! I would like to do several of these before attempting to run.

So again if you know of any walk/run marathons in dallas/ north Texas area please let me know.

Hiking!!

I know this one is probably silly to some but I have never been hiking. I want to find a place either here in texa or in Oklahoma and hike it. Nothing big but another one of those accomplishments that I need.

If you know of any place in either state please drop me a comment!!

Sky Diving

This is one thing I always wanted to do. When I was a young teenager I stated that when I was 21 I was going to go sky diving for my 21st bday. We'll I was pregnant at 21 and then married so it never happened.

We'll as I enter this new phase in my life this is one of the first things I plan to do. I am going to jump from a plane.  Many people think I am crazy but for me this is about re-establishing who I am.

My plan right now is to pay for the jump on my birthday and then do the jump in march when it is a tiny bit warmer. I plan to go alone because this is not for others but is for me. I am paying to get pictures and video done so I will post those.

I am excited and if I like it I would love to do more jumps!!

Looking Back

In less than a month I will be the big 30. I remember when I was a teenager thinking that it was so far away and that It would never happen And yet here it is.

There were so many things that I experienced in my 20s that were great events and some that were not. I would have to say the biggest and greatest events of my 20s were the birth of my kids. The second greatest was completing my bachelors degree and starting my masters degree. I definitely have to say that the first accomplishment helped me with my second accomplishment.  I know that had I not had Kylie at age 21 there is no way I would be where I am now! I am extremely greatful to that little girl coming along when she did because it saved me from going now the wrong path.

There were other happy memories that I experienced in my 20's. my wedding. While it did not last and we are now trying to co parent the girls it showed me that l can be loved the way I am supposed to. While it did not last and I  saddened by that it brought me to the place where I am. Without it I would not have expierenxex the birth of my second little girl. I would have never met the great people I met in the military and I would have never ended up in Texas. I take many memories from that time but it is now time to look forward.


Over the next few weeks leading up to my bday I will post different post about things I want to do and hope to accomplish in the next decade.

December Goals Update

Hard to believe that we are already on 2013!! I am glad to see 2012 leave!! The last year was a year of growth, pain and lessons. I know that 2013 will be a year of more chnages, more lessons and living every life to the fullest.

Here is a update date on my workout goals for December 2012

Caloires Burned- 4205/2500
Miles Walked -52.82/100
Squats-1848/1640
Crunches-5260/2500

I am extremely proud of these goals becasue I really did not think I would accomplish these since I hate squats!!

Here is my weight loss/inches loss update since starting weight watchers in August 2012

Weight loss-25.8
hips 12.5
Arms-1.5
Thighs-3.75
Waist-7

These inches loss are defintley a hug thing to see since inches is always a better indication of weight loss. I did not start tracking these until about 2 montha go so definteluy know these are more

What a year-2011

So as we set the calendars ahead another year I am facing several things I thought that I would never see.

The biggest change of this year is that I will be divorced. My husband and I decided right after Thanksgiving that is was no longer working for either of us. We did try therapy however he has found someone else and has already moved on. We are currently in the process of splitting up our home and trying to figure out custody for our 2 children. I do have to say that this has been one of the hardest things i have been through and would never wish this on someone else. However at the same time my Marriage was no longer a marriage and we were just going thru the motions. I can honestly say that while I still love him and will care for him I am looking forward to some day finding someone who wants me for me.

The other thing that I am facing because of the divorce is living alone. I got married when I was 21 and moved out of my parents home soon after. The only time I have been alone was when my husband was in boot camp and when he went to Iraq. While I am looking forward to the time with my kids I am also very scared about what the future holds and how I will manage everything. I still plan on going to school and I am still working full time so thank god for that blessing it is just hard to think that I have to give up one dream for another.

This year I am hoping to blog more and thur this blog I will work on some issues that plagued my marriage but also that plagued my real life.

Hoping 2012 is my year.