Wednesday, November 26, 2008


So I have at least five people that I know that are pregnant including my dear frined Brandi. While I am extremmely happy for all these families at the same time I struggle with my own need for a baby. Matt and I have said that we will wait a few years but I am so worried that we will get five years down the road and be either too busy or we won't want to do it again becuase the girls will be 10 and 9. I know I should be happy with the 2 I have becasue there are so many people out there that can't have children. And I am. Yet, at the same time I want one maybe 2 more (Matt says only one more, we shall see). I love my husband and I love knowing that the child we have made is a gift to each other. I jsut wish I could talk him into it now. Don't mind my rambling just been one of those nights.

Saturday, November 22, 2008


So today we had a birthday party at the skating ring. Needless to say I was stressed because I was worried that they would not be able to do it. Yet both girls did really good. Maddison only fell a handful of times. She was going at it. Kylie on the other hand is a klutz like me and she fell alot. Yet a few times was on purpose. It was really cute to watch but at the same time hard becuase Matt was missing another first. The first time that they were rolling skating. I even got out there skating. I had forgotten how much fun it was. Matt and I will have to take the kids when he gets home. Plus it is cheap entertainment.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Holding Steady

Well it has been a while since I last blogged but now that school is lmost over with my life should get a little normal. Right now I am holding steady at 140 and it fluctuates between 139 and 141. I have not been to the gym in a few months and I am heading back today. I will post more later.