Thursday, November 15, 2012


A few weeks ago I talked about how angry I was with god (see post here) however the last month or so I have been working out my issues of that I had with god and with my life in general. This song below is the first song that I heard when I was really down!! It speaks to me alot. I have been doing alot of praying, the girls and I are back in church praise god, I am no longer angry at him or even my ex. I have come to relaize that while we have out own plans for our lives there are times they are not our own and that god  is always in control

Redeemed by Big Daddy Weave

Seems like all I can see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me “son
stop fighting a fight that’s already been won”
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off theses heavy chains
Wipe away every stain now I’m not who I used to be
I am redeemed
All my life I have been called unworthy
Named by the voice of my shame and regret
But when I hear You whisper, “Child lift up your head”
I remember oh God, You’re not done with me yet
I don’t have to be the old man inside of me
Cause his day is long dead and gone
I’ve got a new name, a new life I’m not the same
And a hope that will carry me home

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Bacon Pie

I found this yummy recipe here however I had to modify for my weight watchers and also for my kids taste as my youngest is not a fan of cheese(wierd I know). However this recipe came out yummy and I only served this tonight as the main dish but think next time I make chili I will serve this as the bread. My chnages will be in bold,.

12 slices bacon, crisply cooked, crumbled(10 slices)
1 cup shredded Swiss cheese (4 oz) (1/2 cup fat free cheddar)
1/3 cup chopped onion (you can substitute with green onion too) (did not use)
1/2 cup Bisquick
1 cup milk (1 cup fat free half and half)
1/8 teaspoon pepper
2 eggs

Preheat oven to 400 degrees. Grease pie plate, 9x1/1/4 inches.

Sprinkle bacon, cheese, and onion in pie plate.

Stir remaining ingredients until blended. Pour into pie plate.
Bake 35- 40 minutes or until knife inserted in the center comes out clean. Let stand 5 minutes before serving.

The origanl recipe was cooked in a pie pan however mine was cooked in a 8x8 pan. I then cut this into 9 squares.  I had 3 squares which was plently and yummy!!

Point Value-3

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Halloween 2012

This year I did my trick and treating with the girls at our church on Sunday and then their dad had them for Halloween day since I had school. The girls had lots of fun.
Kylie as a pink southern belle

Maddison as a green fairy

Kylie got me making this face!!

My favorite view of my girls

Monday, November 12, 2012

Still Here!!

So it has been a while since I last posted about my journey after divorce. However I needed to step back some and deal with some issues in my head. Part of the reason why I needed to pull back was because of the holidays coming up. My ex husband asked to separate the Monday after thanksgiving and I filed for divorce two weeks before Christmas and he was served two days after Christmas. So as you can imagine my heart is hurting at this time. I am still struggling some because he has been able to move on and while I no longer am wanting and hoping he would come back, I am still hurting over the fact that my life has changed so  much.

I really am doing alot better than I was a year ago, I am able to spend more time with my girls, I am working on getting healthy and some day I hope to find someone who gets me and respects me and my girls. However there have been a ton of challenges which I am having to adjust to. The biggest being financial issues.

So as we progress thru the Holiday season, I will be going home for Thanksgiving with my girls as it is my year with them. I know that going home for that holiday will be good, it will keep my mind of the last year and will allow me to have a small break from life. However Christmas this year will be hard since my ex has the girls. I am hoping that he will allow me to have them for a few hours but i am not getting my hopes up. If I dont' get them to see the on Christmas day, I will just plan my Christmas day for a Saturday that I have them and we will do it up. Christmas eve traditions and all. I am not going to let the fact that my life has changed to destroy the happiness that I have in my heart.

I know that I am getting stronger and better each and every day!!

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Weight Watchers Week 11

So as I mentioned earlier this week I was really struggling with my weight. This week I ended up eating alot more caloires and points but I also was working out for at least 30 minutes everyday but Wednesday. I am proud to say that the small changes have helped quite a bit. Go me!!

Starting Weight-218.5
Current Weight-199.7

Total Weight Loss-18.8lbs
Weekly loss-3.3lbs

I am so happy to see that I broke the plaetau and also got down below 200 pounds!! My goal is to keep the health diet, and take whatever loss I get.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Weight Watchers Update!!

Well I have not blogged in a few weeks about my weight becasue I hit a major stall.. When I mean major, I mean major make me want to give up and gorge on food. However, I have not given up and this week I changed up my diet and exercise and hope to see a loss this week. I will start doing my weekly updates again, I just needed to give myself a tiny brake so I could focus on me!