Tuesday, February 26, 2008

New Bed

So last week I went and bougth kylie a big girl bed. I figured it was time because she had broken her old bed, and was potty trained at night. So the bed was delivered today and of course I had to put it together. Well the first time I put it together the bed was off angle so I had to take one pat of it down and re put it together. Well I got it together and I put her in it tonight and it made me sad to think that my little girl is growing up so fast. Plus it hurt becasue matt is not here to witness his girls growing up.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Broke My..................

So After 2 months of beign stuck at 169.5 and not going any where but up or down I have finally broke the plateau and manage to hit 167. I am so happy but I will be happier when I get down to my goal weigth which has changed again so not sure where I want to be just know I do not want to be fat and miserable ever again.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

So Sweet

My honey is such a wonderful guy. He knew I was dreading valentines day by myself. So what did he do. He sent me 2 dozen tulips which are my absolute favorite flower. Most people like roses but I would rather have tulips. I hope he know how much he is loved by me and how much I am lookign forward to him coming home.

Past Life

So it seems I have made someone upset which is fine with me becuase they can not get over things in the past. We each have a past that we are not proud of . Some more than other.
I have done many things in my past that I am not proud to admit. But I will, I have stolen things, I have lied, I have been suspended and I am sure there are more . While I am not proud to admit these things it does not mean I am a awful person or even a bad mom. It just means that I am human. God and, my husband have forgiven me. If u can't then u do not need to be a part of my life or my kids life.

Also when I made the comment about school I was not thinking about anybody in paricular I was wondering if I was making the rigth decision for myself. Most regardless of what they do struggle with the exact same issue. It is hard to leave your children while you better yourself or even get a break. Yes there are many people who not feel that I should be in school and have a family yet my husband thinks it is right for us.He is the only person's opioinin that matters to me regarding school. Yes having kids, a full course load, and a husband deployed does make me stressed but who in their right mind could not say they would be stressed. If u think u can do what I do we can trade lives for one day and then u can judge me.

As for there are 2 sides to every story, this is a correct statement, but unless u were in the room when it the conversation was takign place please do not assume to know what was said just because of something someone told u. I have told brandi, my husband, and important people in my life my side if they want the other side they know where to go. I am not stopping them. Also, when these comments are made they are done not in spite but to try to be a help. Unfortuanlty right now I do not see them as a help. I listen to what is said to me even when I do not want to here it. I talk it over with my husband and We make the best decisiosns for OUR family. Rigth now me finishing school is important because it will be something that I can fall back on when my husband changes jobs.

My Blog is for me to write my thoughts and feelings about what I am dealing with on a personal level because I do not always have soemone to talk to. U are not required to read, like or even agree with me and that is fine. If u want to say somethign please do not be a chicken and not leave your name. We are adults and we should act like adults.

Thank u

Annoymus Postings

A few days ago I posted about how I feel guilty about leaving my kids at school. My best friend left me a comment about the situation. She then had someone post annoymus comment on her page about me. I am sorry that you feel that I am a liar and not a great person. I am also sorry that you could not post your name about the situation.

Also, yes there are 2 sides to every story and you are right she did not know both sides. Now she does. Also, I am doing the best I am and do not have time for petty things. If u do not like me that is fine you do not have to but please do not waste my time or others by leaving such things without giving me a way to defend myself.

Thank U

Monday, February 11, 2008

My Life

So as u know I am going to school to get my bachelor degree in Social work. Yet I feel awful because I always wonder if I am making the right decison with putting my kids in daycare.
I consider myself a sahm but some people do not because my kids are in school. AM I?

Thos morning I had to drop my kids off at 545 so i could get to class and has I dropped maddison off she was screaming and it broke my heart. As I walked I was so broken hearted becuase I felt so guilty for leaving her.
Then as I was driving to school I was bawling becuase I feel so guilty. Maybe I should drop out and focus on my kids. This wold make everyone happy.

Help what do I do?????

So sad!!!!

So tonight I was looking at some pictures of my honey in Iraq. As I was looking at them maddison came over and said my daddy. It made me so sad becuase she was daddy home and I wanted to cry. No child should have to look at a picture of thier father and not know when he will be home.

The real tearjerker was when she leaned over and kissed his picture. I wanted to bawl becuase it was so cute.

Brandi some pictures were dirty pictures.lol

Another Great Recipe!!!!

Ham and Navy Bean Confetti soup

3 cups fat free low sodium chicken broth
6 oz cooked low sodium lean ham diced
1 can navy beans rinsed and drained
1 carrot shredded
1 stalk celery very thinly sliced
1/2 c diced red bell pepper
2 tbsp chopped parsley

Combine all ingreidents except the parsley in a medium saucepan; cover and bring to a boil. Reduce the heat and simmer, covered, until the vegetables are tender about 5 minutes. Stir in parsley before serving. I did let this simmer for about 25 minutes.

caloires 199 per 1 and 1/3 cup of soup
fat 3 g
sodium 1135
carbs 26
weigth watchers points - 3

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Size 12

I did it. I can now say that I am in a size 12. I bought several outfits this weekend. I am so proud of myself.