A few months back my husband AND I made a decision in regards to onje of are childrena dn now I am feeling like I made the wrong decsion. I am not sure if I am having these issues because matt is gone or if is because I am hurting so bad buT I do knOW IT is starting to take a toll on me.
Also I HAve been having alot of hurt because both time I was pregant I was unable to enjoy because they were both mistakes and if I did enjoy it then I would piss off my fmaily. I have tried telling matt how I feel but of course he does not udnerstand and sometimes does nto seem like he cares.
So basciallly my life sucks. And oh yeah I am getting my butt kicked in thnis challenge and really just want to give up and eat ice cream. WHO CARES If I am fat.