Friday, March 28, 2008

So strong Yet....

There have been many challenges in my life yet going thru this deployment has been so hard on me. I feel as if I am a single mom yet I have my husband but he is not here. I have no one that I can turn to when I am having a bad day( Brandi u are there but u have your own life) so I keep everything inside of be because I do not want to worry matt yet everytime I talk to matt I break down because I am so worried about him not making it ack. He tells me not to worry but it is hard when I know that he is in so much danger over there.

I keep thinking that if I make it thru this deployment then I will be stronger because of it. Yet there are times when I do not feel like this deployment will end.

Bascially deployments suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 comments:

Brandi said...

Girl, stop doing the "I'm strong I can keep it together" bs. Talk to me. I haven't been calling because I know that you are bogged down with school and stuff, but you can call me and talk anytime. And you know that. I can't be a friend to lean on if you don't lean. So lean, dammit.

truelifeofjess said...

Yeah I know but it is very hard for me to admit that I am scared to death of losing my husband. What would I do. U can call anyti me since school is winding down I am doing better.