Thursday, August 7, 2008


So lately and it seem now more than ever I hear my biological clock ticking. Funny Huh for several reasons. They are both good and bad.
1. Matt is deployed not going to happen
2. I have 2 great wonderful kids
3. I still have a year in college
4. Matt and I will not have jobs in less than a year.

Yet I still want another child with Matt. Of course he can not decide if he wants more or not and I don't blame him. He is going 23, has 2 kids, and has dealt with alot more than some people deal with in their whole life.

I feel like I am stuck waiting for him decide and feel that by the time he says yes or no I will not too hve any more because the kids will be so old. Or maybe I will be too old.

I have been trying not to put pressure on him but I wish he would just say yes or no. It is hard though especially with Kylie starting Kindergarten, maddison turning 3 in less than 3 weeks, and a bunch of people I m friends having babies.

Am I wrong for feeling this way?????


Brandi said...

You are not wrong. The heart wants what the heart wants. No matter what the brain says, honey. So try not to worry.

truelifeofjess said...

I Know I cn jusify on both ends but yet I always come back to matt is still not sure and I refuse to have another "accident" Know what I mean

Brandi said...

I don't blame you. It can be nice to actually plan a baby too ... If you can get your husband to give up the goods, LOL ...

truelifeofjess said...

Yes it would be nice but I am not in a hurry right now. I think once I finish school it will be ok.