Monday, October 27, 2008

Self refecltion time!!

These past two weeks have been some of the toughest due to a decision I made several months ago yet at the same time they have also been very eye opening.

During this wonderful and fun deployment I have learned several things about myself
1. I hate sleeping alone at night.
2. I am too much of a news Junkie
3. I can make hard decisions and live with the consequences
4. Matt is great husband even when he make mistakes.
5. I hate writing papers
6. I can do good on a test

I think there comes a point in our lives whether we be married or single that we all learn that we need to learn to rely on ourselves before asking others for help. I have always looked towards my family to decide what should be done or what would be disapproving. Yet 4 years go I made the biggest decision to leave the state and go to a place where I knew no one. I did this without worrying about what my family thinks. And now my hubby and I WILL be making some big decisions in the coming months as we are leaving the military life to go back to the civilian world. While we are both worried(me more than him) we also are strong and confident in knowing that we have each other to fall back on. I am ready to see what my life has in store for me without worrying about the people who wish to see us fall.

As kids we are taught to look towards our families when we need help but when is it time to say enough. Well guess what I have had enough. If my family can not accept me then oh well I am done trying to please everyone. I can only be responsible for my happiness and not someone Else's. Right now it is all about me(and hubby and the kids).


1 comment:

Brandi said...

Amen sister! Now if you'd only tell them that for real ...