Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Jealous

So I have at least five people that I know that are pregnant including my dear frined Brandi. While I am extremmely happy for all these families at the same time I struggle with my own need for a baby. Matt and I have said that we will wait a few years but I am so worried that we will get five years down the road and be either too busy or we won't want to do it again becuase the girls will be 10 and 9. I know I should be happy with the 2 I have becasue there are so many people out there that can't have children. And I am. Yet, at the same time I want one maybe 2 more (Matt says only one more, we shall see). I love my husband and I love knowing that the child we have made is a gift to each other. I jsut wish I could talk him into it now. Don't mind my rambling just been one of those nights.

1 comment:

Brandi said...

Someday ... I just hope he can eventually see how important this is to you before it starts to come between you too much.