Friday, April 27, 2007


Matt might be home soon. He could end up going back over there.

This has been really hard because he is having a rought time and I feel like it is my fault because he did not have to go into until I got pregnant with my second child. I feel like if something happens to him it will be my fault.

I know I should not feel ths way but it has been hard without by myside. I ahve not been sleeping and I feel like it is starting to take a toll on my health and my diet. I will be goign home in a few weeks so I am praying that that will help but I am unsure right now.


Brandi said...

Aw, honey. Trust me, no matter how you feel, nothing that may or may not happen over there is your fault. You decided together that this is what you guys would do back then, and it'll be okay. You did not cause this.

truelifeofjess said...

Yeah I know but it so hard. I got mad at him yesterday because he acts like what I am doing is so easy.

Brandi said...

Well, it's definitely easier than being at war in a foreign country ... but he should try to understand your side too. What moms do isn't easy, and I've been alone before, and it's rough. So much is sitting on your shoulders, and it can be hard to deal with. I feel for ya, babe.

BTW, the phone is fixed now.

truelifeofjess said...

Yeah I know he has it hard but I miss him and the girls do to and it breaks my heart when they cry for him. I will try to call tonight. AFTER the punks are in bed.