Sunday, May 18, 2008

Weight

Oh my weight is the bain of my existence. I have been all over the place with my weight. My goal for the last 2 months was 150. Yet last month I only got down to 156.5 and this month who knows where I will end up.

I started at 156.5 got all the way down to 151.5 and then have hit 156 again. I am self sabotage myself though. I get so worried that I won't be able to maintain the weight once I GET there so I let myself get to a weight where I can maintain it.

How to I self sabotage u may be wondering. Well this week I hit 151.5 and so instead of being happy about it I allowed myself to think i could not do it. Instead of eating healthy I had alot of cake and ice cream and did a lot of snacking which for me is a no no.

My plan right now is to work on getting my eating back in control. I have been hitting the gym as many as 5 times a week for up to 2 hours. Tomorrow I plan on going to the gym and doing weight training for 1 hour, doing the treadmill for 15 minutes, elliptical for 33 minutes, and then doing 15 minutes on the bike. On Tuesday I am planning on taking a boot camp class that is offered and then getting on the stair stepper for 20 minutes. Wednesday will be another day like Monday expect that I will add fine minutes to the. On Thursday I am leaving for Florida but when I am there I am going to try to get some running in. That way I am still staying active.

On Mondays of each week I will update my weight, and a few measurements.

3 comments:

Brandi said...

Remember babe. It's not the weight that's out of control, it's your mental image of the weight. If you keep seeing those pounds as a big guy hiding in the dark to jump out and get you ... that's what it will always be, and you might never really be free of it. So try to stop seeing it there, looming around the corner, and try to see it as truly lost. You need to have a little more faith in yourself, sweetie. You've done an awesome job in spite of all that you've been through on this little journey of yours ... So look back and be proud. Rejoice in the success and stop being afraid of something you've already beat in so many ways. It's just standing there wavering, so like they say in mortal kombat ... "Finish Him!"

Just kill the fat bastard off, and he'll stop hiding, waiting to jump back on your ass, LOL ...

truelifeofjess said...

Yeah I have been doing better this week but it is only tuesday. I did get back down to 164.5. Matt told me that I need to see someone becuase he feels that this problem could get worse and lead to me gaining the weight back.

Brandi said...

Have at it. All you've got to lose is a few more pounds and some issues, so what's the worst that could happen? You can never have too many people to whine to, I always say ...