people decide to get a divorce, it isn't a sign that they "don't
understand" one another, but a sign that they have, at last, begun to.”-
After several months of coming to terms with my divorce I
thought I was truly ok with everything however every time I look at my kids I
wonder if there was any way that I could have made my marriage work. I know
that deep down it was time for us to end it because we were both miserable and
no longer made each other happy.
However in the last few weeks I have been trying to overcome
the anger that I have.
I am angry at everyone including god.
Yes it is wrong to be mad at god but right now I so angry
about the fact that my life is not how I wanted ti to be and yes I know that life
is not always however we want it to be.
The anger at this point is my security blanket. If I am
angry then I don’t have to let anyone in and I won’t get hurt yet I know that I
can’t raise my kids like this.
I am going to spend the next few weeks overcoming the anger
and realizing that while the divorced happened and my life was turned upside
down.I was also given a second chance
to life my life without being controlled by someone else.
Here’s hoping to the anger leaving me alone so that I can be
a strong woman raising my babies.