Sometimes it seems like we don't want to wait for gods timing. Rather we would rather do what we want when we want however if we do this then we miss something great
The hardest thing for me right now is leaving everything up to god. I am a person who likes to be very much on control however after the past 9 months I have come to realized that I have to give my control up because regardless of what happens he is always in control.
One hard thing that I am struggling with is thinking that maybe there is no body out there for me. I know that I have to trust in the lord and maybe the plan is for me to be single. However I hope not because I like being in a relationship, however I want a health relationship. Not one where I feel like I am the only one responsible. I know the next few months and possibly years I will be focusing on healing myself. I know that I cant be in a healthy relationship unless I am healthy also.